A new year has dawned. 2014! When I was younger the year 2000 sounded so far off and so futuristic, now we are in the 14th year of the 2000's. It is a little hard for me to comprehend. Where has time gone? Every time a new year approaches I wonder what it will bring with it. Trials, joys, accomplishments, changes. I find myself reflecting on things of the past year and how to make myself better in this new year.
Today is the 4th day of this new year. I have made resolutions to improve myself spiritually and physically. So far so good. lol. But today I also find myself looking to the future and back to the past at the same time. I'm not sure why, but I find myself filled with emotion. I'm so grateful for my family. My family brings me so much joy and fulfillment. Especially my children. One can never know the deep love a mother feels for her child until she is a mother herself. One day you are single and only have yourself to worry about, and then you find someone to love and who loves you back. Sometimes this happens when you least expect it. And when it does it is so wonderful. You commit to each other and make sacred vows that reach into the eternities. You begin on a journey together that is miraculous, scary, exciting, hopeful and full of love. It is a time in one's life like no other. I reflect back on this time in my life. It seems so long ago and like yesterday.
I remember being a new mom. It was a struggle but one filled with so much love and joy. It was the most precious time of my life. I remember holding my baby girl in my arms and thinking that I would have her there in my arms forever. That she would always belong to me. She was the most beautiful and perfect thing that I had ever seen. My baby girl is now almost 20 years old. I know that it won't be long and I will have to give her away. Give her to someone else who loves her just as much or maybe more. (I don't know if that is possible) I did not know that this time would come so soon. I am not ready. But no one asked me if I was ready. I really no longer have a choice. I knew this day would come, but I did not know that it would be so hard. She will always be my feisty, spunky, silly, fun-loving, precious little girl. My beautiful little red head.
I have tried my best to prepare her for you. Her prince charming. I wrote a blog post on here that mentioned you. It was March of 2012. almost 2 years ago. Back then you were just a cute little frog. Now you are her prince charming. I know that you were made for her. I feel that you are the right one for her. Knowing this makes it easier to give her to you. I have said from the very beginning that I could not have hand picked a better person for her. I knew from the first time that I met you that you are a very special person.
I cry just thinking about letting go. But I also know how much joy the two of you will share. I know that you will love her and take care of her from now until forever. My baby girl will soon be yours. It has been so sweet watching the two of you fall in love.
It is really hard to put into words the feelings in my heart right now. The two of you are still only dating and have just begun this journey together. But I know in my heart that you are the one I will be giving her to in a very short time. I want to thank you for being the man that you are. The man of her dreams. Her Superman. Thank you for being a worthy priesthood holder, for being close to the Lord, for keeping your covenants. I know that you will be her anchor. She will no longer turn to me when when she has a problem, heartache, a silly joke or a question. She will turn to you. She will no longer cuddle with me, she will cuddle with you.
I have only known you for a little over a month, but I feel a special bond with you that I hope will grow stronger and stronger. I know that you are a chosen son of God with great potential and purpose. I know that you have a sincere desire to do good and be good. I know that you will always stand for truth and right. You will be a pillar of goodness. I know that you are the one prepared to give yourself to my baby girl. To love her and honor her. To lead her into the eternities. I know that you will take care of her. Help her be the most that she can be. I know that you will treat her like the precious daughter of God that she is. She has been, and will always be, one of the most special people in my life. Now she will be one of, if not the most, special person in your life.
As hard as it is for me to let go of her, and to give her away, I am glad that it is to you. I don't know if I could give her to anyone less special. I know that you are prepared to love her in good times and in bad. Love her when she is cute and silly, when she is sweet and cuddly, when she is funny and witty. But especially love her when she is tired and grumpy, when she is insecure and scared, when she is exasperating and frustrating, when she is sad and vulnerable. But always remember that I loved her first :)
I also love that you have dimples. I can't believe that it took me so long to figure that out. But when I did, you inched your way further into my heart. haha! I'm a sucker for a person with dimples.
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